So the other day an old friend decided to show up! It was the old me!
From the moment I woke up to the moment I went to bed there was no denying the fact that I was having a really low day. My continuous streaming of thoughts went something like this…..
You are not a real writer as you are not successful yet, the book should be doing better in sales, no one likes your blogs, and your new book you just finished, the fiction, is lame, it will never be published. You are not making enough money and when you do it’s not enough. I don’t know why you are even bothering at this writing stuff!
The most frustrating part about agreeing and going along with these old voices is that I knew better. I have been validated so many times by strangers that I am good at what I do, that it does matter, that people are inspired by what I write and that I am making a difference. My book sales are more than what I had ever hoped, which was one! It is continually growing monthly into something wonderful, I am enjoying the journey!
Also the weird experiences that I have encountered on this amazing journey is undeniably a constant reminder that I am being guided by something greater than myself, and that I am doing what I am meant to be doing.
So why did I have that day? Why did the old negative me return and do so much damage?
I was speaking to a good friend, trusting her with my emotional baggage that very day, as I asked her why? She said to me, “Because you are choosing to feel this way.” Can I honestly tell you how annoying it is when someone else tells you your own advice back to you! Very frustrating BUT I realised in that moment that we are all human, and the point is that we need those beautiful people in our lives to remind us of what we already know.
Yes, we all need reminding! It’s like anything we do, it takes practice. Just because I know what works doesn’t mean I can put it into action all the time. I need to practice to become better at it.
So I did. The next day my post was the best performing post I have ever done. Sometimes it gives us that push we need.
It’s okay to have a bad day, just remember to let it go. How wonderful life is that we get to wake up and try again every single day.
Have the most amazing day!