I have heard so many times that we need to just let things go, if we did then we would truly be healed inside and out. But how do we do that?
I have been through a lot in my life and I must admit that all the stuff before Jack now seems so small, I have forgiven so many people for so many things, but do they still haunt me? Am I still holding onto things against other people, against myself?
I guess letting go is like releasing it from your heart and I suppose that there are many different ways you can do it, maybe you just have to find what works for you.
Let me share a little story with you.
One day I was sitting down trying to do the speech for my book launch for “Just Believe,” the book about Jack. It was very confronting and very difficult, I ended up in tears every time unable to speak. I was so embarrassed thinking that on the night I would be a bumbling mess. Fear took me over, how was I suppose to do this? I had always been afraid of public speaking and it was a huge fear of mine. But suddenly after about the twentieth attempt I heard a clear voice, it wasn’t angry but it was loud and very stern, and it said….
“Do you not get it yet? Do you not understand how important this is, more important than your fear.”
An amazing feeling came over me as the voice spoke, showing me that this journey was not about my pain or about my fear of public speaking. It was about doing what I was meant to be doing, sending a message of love. I was thinking so very small at a time that I was meant to be launching something bigger. This was my purpose, something higher had planned this for me, and it was time for me to stop getting in the way of it.
So, I let it go! I instantly let the fear go! Forgiveness towards myself was instant. I felt free!
There were some tears that night at the book launch, but I did not worry about the speech for the fear had completely gone. Something I had chosen to fear for over forty years had instantly evaporated, I was actually excited about it. My speech was more than I could have ever expected, and I sent that message to all those who were there.
My purpose, Jack’s message, was more important than fear.
Maybe to let go of all of that STUFF we hang on to, all we have to do is to stop lying to ourselves and finally get out of the way of something that is far more important than fear.